Me & My inner feelings

crumble

2007-10-23T12:39:00.000-07:00

going back in time,
I found that unbearable silence..
was it my fault? my crime?
to be just me?

here.. please hold my world..
for I just want to crumble and cry..

I want that tear, rigid and cold..
to crawl on your cheek and die...

2007-10-16T13:18:00.000-07:00

you are in the place between, my smiles and tears..
on the line that separated, happiness and fears…

on that wall… I drew my soul..
for the waves to wash away,
and for you to ignore…

there's nothing I can do...

lanes

2007-10-05T13:46:00.000-07:00

I licked the yellow line,
separating the lanes of my life…
for they are truly mine,
to die among…

my lanes.. my life.. I live and die.. and live again.. in my lanes..

bye bye my love...

2007-09-13T17:29:00.000-07:00

I was a wall
before you came and broke me..
I was it all
before the tears had washed me..

I ask my tears to cry me away
to strangle the fears of that void day…

I’m counting on you to stay,
and gather what’s left of my world..
for I know that one day
I’ll make the story to be told..

bye bye my love...

fake

2007-08-30T12:26:00.000-07:00

yesterday I put on my empty soul,
and stared back at a fruitlessly busy life,
I loathed people, their hollowness, their aimless strife…

tomorrow I go back, strip my soul,
to watch it beautifully suffer,
as it tinges unbearable truths,
and the lies they cover…

today I wrote this poem..

fake people make me sick, please don't become one...

Sri Lanka

2007-08-23T01:47:00.000-07:00

there ran the girl,

out of her lover’s embrace,
leaped into heavens,

and started to cry,

fatal tears for a brutal sky..

smiled the girl… wild and free..
with a bright vision and an eye to see..
to see another unnamable day,
of a land rough and beautiful..
to touch the green in a new way,
to smile again and freely sway…

to the beautiful girls of Sri Lanka.. to Sri Lanka with love..

time..

2007-08-09T10:35:00.000-07:00

a face moved
in a faceless crowd..
it truly proved
what I felt inside…

tick.. tock..
time came rushing through,
passing fiercely
between me and you..

there stopped the face
and stared back..
causing that careless time
to painfully crack..

time is killing me.. I can only see you.. I miss you..

desperation?

2007-07-24T15:39:00.000-07:00

there called desperation
with luring tones ..
slowly cutting its way..
into fragile bones..

I hid the bones away
to keep them from you..
for I know one day,
they’ll write my life again..

keep holdin on...

faceless

2007-07-14T08:10:00.001-07:00

same old tears
cutting new paths
down that weary face…
dancing brutally with fears
of an everlasting past..

tears must fade away,
I ran out of faces…
they cannot stay,
for a faceless me…

for bright suns I reach out,
to save me from you…
my faceless self cries,
knowing it’s true:
my suns have failed me…

shadows

2007-07-03T15:54:00.000-07:00

it all happens at night…
the shadows of yesterday’s morning climb to the top..
blue, naked, deprived of light,
they just don’t know how to stop..

I cover my eyes,
and I see them no more.
yet I hear their longing cries,
asking me for more…

the shadows are asking me for more pain, more sufferings, and more tears… ugly shadows take all u need…

the day you left...

2007-06-25T14:11:00.000-07:00

I picked up your steps as you were leaving,
and hid them away with my tears believing,
that one day I shall hold you again…

I keep the memories you gave me warm in my chest,
wishing to live and die looking and hoping for the best.

me the window

2007-06-20T14:13:00.000-07:00

I dreamt that I was a window,
rain running down my face…
a heavy door slammed unwillingly,
and turned down the place.

there stood the window.. calm and proud,
listening to the voice of rain.. and the peace she found.

still smile

2007-06-12T12:20:00.000-07:00

today, that lake decided to dry,
leaving behind its hidden memories…
and I, not knowing why, stepped on them…

lonely and hurt… they silently cry..
in their tears I saw your face…
I touched it and smiled… remembering why.

I remembered why I still smile.. your love is in the air, you soul is still around, your smile still here. I love you :*

TAAADDAAAA!!!

2007-06-08T13:31:00.000-07:00

Tagged by eshda3wa!! ;)
A Available or single - so damn attached!

B Best friend- someone who’s always there, someone who I don’t need to explain myself to, who loves me for who I am :* a7bkom!

C Cake or pie – Cake!!

E Essential item- my cell

F Favourite color- black and baby blue

G Gummy bears or worms- worms!

H Home town- Kuwait

I Indulgence- Virginia Woolf!! (oh my God) ice-cream!! Chocolate! Books!

J January or February- January!

K kids- annoying little creatures ;p

L Life- interestingly hard

M Marriage- NO WAY!!!

N Number of siblings- 4

O Oranges or Apples- apples

P Phobias- Aerophobia (fear of flying)

Q Favourite quote- “you cannot find peace by avoiding life”

R Reason to smile- RAIN! Family, friends, PUFAK, diet coke

S Season- winter

T Tag 3 people- common_sense, zizotime, nadia

U Unknown fact about me- I cry whenever I finish a book :(

V/W Worst habit- hmmm ;p

X/Y Your favourite food- PUFAK!!!!

Z Zodiac- Ox

falls

2007-05-24T16:26:00.000-07:00

that unnamable fear
pulled me down…
to the face of earth,
so cold, so clear…
it touched my eyes,
and sheltered one more tear…

after each fall I get up.. my body colder, my heart warmer.. my soul stronger...

you are my reason

2007-05-17T13:03:00.000-07:00

when life turns its back,
remember I’m here…
I’ll be forever your track,
so close to you, so near…

when you’re down,
I’ll get you through…
for I’m only alive,
because of you!!!

me and my ceiling

2007-05-10T13:20:00.000-07:00

all alone..
just me and my ceiling,
down on me
there it goes
that deadly feeling

with a cry
deep inside
I touch my ceiling
make it go!
make me fly!

then and there
it cries with me
it can bear
all that pain…

all alone… me and my ceiling.. all alone

you are my ceiling!

kill me

2007-05-04T12:39:00.000-07:00

I’m alive?
kill me… just one more time..
kill what you’ve started…
for my insignificant soul
had willingly departed..

my ugly thoughts are killing me... I miss you.. I know you miss me too :*

freedom of my mind

2007-04-27T15:00:00.000-07:00

there… where my mind wondered around,
the vast forbidden land…
there… where only a “he”,
could presumably stand.

"there is no gate, no lock, no bolt that you can set upon the freedom of my mind" -Virginia Woolf

STRONG

2007-04-23T16:21:00.000-07:00

cut through my wings,
I’ll still proudly fly…
for they give me power,
the tears I cry…

look closer, you’ll see
I am the unknown world…
I am what I’ll be,
what I’ll passionately unfold.

I am vigorously strong… nothing will ever stop me!

a day...

2007-04-18T13:44:00.000-07:00

I watched as the day carefully went away…
through my empty hands… and my shattered soul..
I saw it all,
a hurt life never to crawl,
but to be taken once and for all.

I am tired... and hurt...

lies!

2007-04-14T14:18:00.000-07:00

lazy April’s afternoon,
looking straight into my eyes…
promising very soon,
to uncover my beautiful lies…

lies are hiding behind canny thoughts… through watchful afternoons they lurk to the surface… catch them and never let go…

dying waves...

2007-04-09T14:17:00.000-07:00

a thousand dying waves,
in a world far from true,
now they’re coming together…
to have a life within you…

ME!

2007-04-06T15:12:00.000-07:00

softly.. finding the truly me,
no more empty thoughts:
what must I be?

right before the end,
I choose you… my beginning…
one more rule to bend,
I am finally becoming!!!

YOU!

2007-04-03T09:46:00.000-07:00

you are my little miracle,
in a sea indifferent and shallow…
tenderly coming when my soul,
was beginning to painfully follow…

your crazy soul "dazzles" me.. I can't have enough of you!! I am miraculously blessed to have you as a friend :*** i love you!

It is MY world!

2007-03-29T16:07:00.000-07:00

blue shaded faces
in a world yellow and bright
keeping upcoming suns
and tender promising tides...

hurt me.. and see if I care! :)

hopes, memories and more

2007-03-23T01:20:00.000-07:00

and I, once again,
on an abandoned shore…
picking what people had left:
hopes, memories and more,
of a lovely summer now gone…

inside it keeps me happy and warm,
to know they’re here:
hopes, memories and more..

The Future!

2007-03-16T10:14:00.000-07:00

battles within my eyes,
to cling or to let go?
between sufferings and cries..
who really needs to know?!

when present and past are finally through...
only then, I can clearly see you…

at the break of dawn, I work as hard as I can… when the night carefully crawls, I sit back and relax to embrace what life has to offer… with a smile :)
Nuba :**

self-confrontation

2007-03-10T11:32:00.000-08:00

there was I,
under tangled thoughts,
and pale thoughtful sky…
thinking simply in short:
to live again, one must die.

Bumpy Road

2007-03-04T14:16:00.000-08:00

vigorously running,
down the bumpy road…
going everywhere.. nowhere..

down the same lane..
walking slowly… thoughtfully…
no more confusing pain.
hello my bump-less road!

again and again

2007-02-24T06:39:00.000-08:00

I wiped the dagger of pain,
and neatly put it away…
impatiently waiting for it,
to strike again...

To you.. My love

2007-02-13T03:42:00.000-08:00

You’re my hidden secret,
deeply asleep at day..
at day, when I carefully climb,
your crazy soul…

At night, I fling myself backwards,
into your crazy waves,
into your words…
I see you, love, I see it all…

Happy Valentine's Day Everybody!!
Love, and enjoy love... it's beautiful!!

2007-01-29T14:52:00.000-08:00

Like a dancing bee struck by lightning,
I saw bright heavens right before...

a dream

2007-01-12T09:42:00.000-08:00

I dreamt,
carefully to confirm:
my lucid image…
my visions of joy…

I dream of you,
to wisely enjoy,
the gift of a dream…

I wake up,
step into the stream…
remembering you..
my blue dream…
Talented Photographer: Jon Bruschi.

closed eyes?

2006-12-18T08:01:00.000-08:00

In the dark I can't see
I stretch my arm.. it disappears..
I disappear...

I open my eyes...
it becomes clear:
Life is easy with eyes closed.

I choose to open my eyes, to see the challanges of life. I rather live in disturbing daylight, than live in indifferent darkness.
photograph from: www.users.ms11.net

I AM!

2006-12-02T10:58:00.000-08:00

I am the shadows of a lost woman,
give me back my name…

I am the forbidden word of a fragmented world…
I am the unknown dream…

I am the dark seas,
be aware!
For you're about to drown,
in a drop…
photograph from: www.allposters.com

differance!

2006-11-24T02:00:00.000-08:00

On foot I walked,
the shadowy path of life…
With a sharp gaze I looked,
at dimly human ignorance…

I chose to forget my own name…
I'm difference!
The world appeared not the same…
possibilities!

image from: http://newsimg.bbc.co.uk

I've been there

2006-11-01T17:33:00.000-08:00

I never wiped my feet...
the sand of beach... still playfully dance on it...

My heart will ever beat...
for things it can't reach... and I'll always love it...

photo from: www.orlandoattractions.com

Life?

2006-10-29T13:52:00.000-08:00

The face of life looked at me,
quietly pale..
to be what IT wants to be?
to fail?

I threw a stone...
it reached there..
where life becomes Me.

photograph by: MrCam.

Life

2006-10-27T16:13:00.000-07:00

In the sailor's eye,
the boat slept on shore..
the moon kissed the sky,
and he cried no more...

through the eyes of the sailor, I saw, that life can be whatever we want it to be.. through our eyes, we creat life, we constitute life... life is what we see in life...

My Love 2

2006-10-24T18:26:00.000-07:00

From his palm emerged,
mountains of agony...
In my eyes they swayed,
and I shed his tears...

Photograph from: www.findharmony.com

There's Light

2006-10-21T13:43:00.000-07:00

I wake up, and I wake up...
it's still a dream?
As hard as I can, I scream..
yet I can't hear myself..

I try to open the door..
It's locked?
I stretch my fingures underneath it,
there's light...
it's warmly warm.

Potograph from: www.opendoor.com

Him

2006-10-19T15:04:00.000-07:00

With thankful lips I kissed life,
it kissed me back, carefully harsh...

With a leap I reached where,
love becomes him...

Photographer: Christian Fournier.

My Love

2006-10-17T16:46:00.000-07:00

A drop of rain
flirted with his eye...
he smiled,
so did I..

On the brook we danced,
hand in hand..
with jealousy the brook glanced,
so did the land.

photograph from: drinkerthinker.com

An Artist

2006-10-15T15:25:00.000-07:00

Between my peaceful sheets I looked,
for a dying dream.
For I came to realize,
I can give away life...

Photographer: Paul Snieckus Jr.

Her Eyes

2006-10-12T09:10:00.000-07:00

In her eyes I saw,
a frightened tear,
careful not to drown,
her heartless lashes...

Photographer: Jon Bruschi.

Truth

2006-10-10T06:22:00.000-07:00

Like a rose unwelling to bloom,
I refused to leave bed.
For happiness turned to gloom,
yet.. I cease to be dead!

Figuring where the truth lies,
I've seen queer things.
For it exists on bunch of lies,
and indeed... it truely stings.

Photographer: Jon Bruschi.

Betrayal

2006-10-08T05:30:00.000-07:00

My soul was shattered into a thousand pieces,
and spread over a dying leaf...

to my fun companion, my everlasting charm. Appearances fail, deceive, and fool us. I know you are hurt, and i know you are STRONG.

Ballerina

2006-10-07T02:54:00.000-07:00

Little naked ballerina,
dancing out of tones,
broke her tiny music box,
with her delicate bones...

photograph by: Ally Attisano.

Pain

2006-10-04T15:42:00.000-07:00

Only once I felt pain,
pain has been painless since then.
So quite and so plain,
as it comes over and over again.

Photographer: Jon Bruschi.

2006-10-03T15:20:00.000-07:00

Weary beach won't take,
shattered love stories.
Its fading waves won't break,
their existing realities.
No more...

Photographer: Jon Broschi.

Memories, time, and life...

2006-10-01T15:04:00.000-07:00

How empty and lost I am without,
my past and memories.
I'm not going to shut them out,
for they are... what I am.

How lovely is time,
we can travel in it whenever we want,
to moments extreme and prime,
to find what we once had lost.

In each life there's a bench,
where you can observe and see,
how alive life is how rich,
how wonderful it can be!

!

2006-09-27T18:29:00.000-07:00

In my closet it laid,
vile, proud, and hard.
Price of trust was paid,
I played my card.

It shot my frail leg,
part of a whole.
Please don't make me beg,
you to take the soul!

Candle

2006-09-27T16:09:00.000-07:00

I stretched my tongue beneath the candle,
and licked its tears.
How unfair it is to handle,
suffering in young years!

Sorrow candle will someday die,
someone will kill its glary flame.
Its blue smoke will proudly fly,
and no one'll remember its name.

Cute Photographer: Mohammed Sharaf.

Two Empty Cans!

2006-09-26T05:20:00.000-07:00

Walking down the road I saw,
two empty cans.
I kicked one with a blow,
while the other stands.

It knocked itself down,
and spread blood.
How lovely it is to drown,
in your own flood!

Photographer: Jon Broschi.

I'm a Boat

2006-09-24T14:40:00.000-07:00

I’m a boat on a lonely shore,
tied by a rope.
With a positive hollow core,
doomed to mope.

The rope is blind it can’t see,
millions of attempts that’ll fail.
What a boat shall be,
if it cannot sail!

Inspired by the talented photographer: Mohammed Sharaf.

My Stairs

2006-09-19T14:22:00.001-07:00

Climbing the stairs I realized,
my stairs are endless,
some good, some demonized,
segments of mind restless.

I’m Ulysses in my little tragedy,
Fighting with a sword of words.
Agamemnon lost in a parody,
A magical lyre with no cords.

Photographer Manfred Leiter.

My Palm

2006-09-17T11:50:00.000-07:00

Under the Rain:
The lines on my palm were disfigured...
by a drop,
once water, now liquored...
in a magical cup.

Under the Sun:
The lines on my palm were dissolved...
by a beam,
hard, like a riddle unsolved...
like a dream.

Photograph By Photographer: Declan McCullagh.

Dancing Rain

2006-09-07T12:47:00.000-07:00

On the roof, the rain is dancing…
tick… tock…
In my room, watching and glancing..
I love you rain..

Dance, dance, never stop…
wash it all away.
Musical sound.. drip.. drop…
day after day after day…

Inspired By: Photographer Jon Bruschi

2006-09-03T15:57:00.000-07:00

Like me, the sky is crying..
rain… rain…
No more birds flying…
no more…

the next day…
the sky shook off its tears and put on a new sun,
like me, wiping my rain and pretending to have fun…